For all I know he may have the same watch on. And may be thinking it’s a trophy. And he may be thinking, “yeah I got her, and she gave it back to me.” You don’t go and do that to a woman. Normally I don’t see a man doing that to a woman unless she’s asking for it and no woman really deserves that done to them even if she is asking for it.
I think he’s still the same, I think it’s even worse now because he’s the chief of police. He had an article in the paper that made the front page news that he was taking the money from the elderly. This cop was caught taking money from the elderly. And they push that all under the rug and he went ‘n became chief of police. He was getting the money in an illegally way, it made the front page of the papers. But all that got shoved to the side when he went to be chief of police. You can probably look it up, it was a record in the paper in the Wellston telegraph. And I’m not trying to make the guy look bad, it is what it is. And if the truth be known I think there was some domestic violence in his life as well between him and his wife.
The sad thing is how many other women has he done that to let his anger get the best of him and not be a professional. And I have a witness, my brother seen the whole thing. And I’m not proud of that, that he seen that. It makes me feel bad that he seen the man react that way and let his temper get the best of ‘em and not let his badge show honor but show dishonor.
He’s chief of police now so I guess it doesn’t hurt him at all to sleep at night. It scares me to think that a man like that is chief of police. It really does. It scares me just a tiny little bit to go back to that town knowing that he is chief of police. If something were to happen in that town he would probably be behind it. He’s one of those people where a person could end up missing and no one would ever know what happened. And he would make sure of that. Some people just hate. They even hate knowing that you made it. And they’re so stuck there in that shit hole by their choice. They don’t want to see you getting a better life either.
The Moral
It was time to make peace. I don’t know if it’s a good story. I know it was good for me. When I hear it out loud it sounds a little bit differently. The way it felt was awful. But hearing it out loud makes me think that I should have dealt with it in a different way (taking the watch; having the hate). But I dealt with it the best I could at the time.
I guess the moral is if you’re hatin’, the hate is only hurting you, it’s not hurting him. If you give up the hate it helps you; not them–it’s you. Keepin’ that watch was only hurting me. It wasn’t hurting him. He probably didn’t care that the watch was gone, he might’ve missed it a couple days later. And he knowed why it was gone, and what he did. I’m sure he never lost any sleep over it.
But that’s all right because when I gave him that watch I made my peace. All this time I was holding that watch I was thinking, “I’ll get him back. There’s gonna be a crime committed ‘n your watch is goin’ be shown up there.” That’s no way to think, but that was the only way that I knew to get him back. There was no other way to get him back. Nobody was going to believe me. But finally I left the whole situation and the whole state.
The story is the watch, but the story’s much deeper, it’s about being at piece, and it’s about loving yourself enough to forgive even if they don’t. It’s not about them, it’s about you.